I had never fully committed to myself.
I never allowed myself to believe that
I needed or deserved:
1) the resources to really sit with, accept, and heal from the trauma that I had experienced in my life,
2) as well as the trauma inherited from my ancestors,
as a 1st generation Asian woman.
Sometimes the mind and body can be so smart…
…they can trick us into forgetting our trauma as a way of protecting us from deep suffering and pain.
I realized that oftentimes because of my conditioning as a 1st generation Asian woman, I had been taught to just
“power through,”
“be strong,”
“don’t show weakness”
and
“save face”
